Saturday, August 20, 2011

My kid has webbed toes, so what?

My daughter started her last two weeks of camp, nervous for ballet class. She didn't want to do the final performance in front of the camp and parents. She's a shy one. After the first few days, she had a strong liking for her teacher and was having fun. Then day four came and one girl asked her about her toes.  My daughter has the second and third toe on both her feet "webbed" about 2/3 up the toes.  She told her she was born that way, that they're "stuck together." What turned out to be one girls curiosity sparked two days of four, five more girls asking questions, making faces. "Does your mom have those toes?" "Eeewww!" "How come they're like that?" "Take them apart?" Anxiety turned from the performance to going to class barefoot everyday.
I'm not going to lie, when she was born I was upset over her feet. I asked the doctor to cut them at birth and was told it's really an involved procedure requiring reassigning of blood vessels if needed and skin grafts and that I should just leave it.  I had my own insecurities growing up of having fat feet and never wore sandals until senior year of high school. I could only imagine how some kids would tease my daughter.  If she was a boy, no big deal, but a girl, she should have pretty feet.
As time went on, I grew to love those toes. That's part of my baby's uniqueness. I kiss them, I rub them, I stare at them with love.  I joke with her and say she was part mermaid and that's what's left. She can swim faster, it's a bonus.
She loves her toes, because as a family, that's all we've ever told her.  Those are the only feet she knows.  Why shouldn't she love them? And now, this one girl in particular is making yuck faces at them? I feel bad, wish it didn't happen. I hope this will give my sensitive little girl the thicker skin she needs.  I hope she takes it in stride and this is the last someone will mention it.
My baby is happy, healthy, beautiful and smart.... and she happens to have webbed toes, so what?


Sunday, August 7, 2011

It's been a while!

I haven't wrote on this in a while!  I should probably read my last post to see where I left off, but today I just need to let off a little steam. When do I not?
So if it hasn't been established, my daughter's father is a douche bag. I haven't been paid my child support on a regular basis all year. I got paid once in January, once in April, and once in June. Now he wants to go to court and claim he hasn't worked it 4 1/2 years so he can reduce his child support payments.  What a f*#%ing bag of shit. Meanwhile, he owns a $500,000 motorhome he put under his girlfriend's name and runs the production company, flies between NY, LA & Miami constantly. He forgets that I'm smarter than him and already got what I needed over him and his lawyer.

On a good note, I got into the Cardiac Sonography Program. Cheers to that!